Happy Mother’s Day…
I know you’ll be having a good day whether it’s celebrated in Heaven or not. Things are a little less happy down here. I was so looking forward to being with you and Miranda today. I started thinking about this day and how great it was going to be back on June 19, 2010. Now I’m not sure what to do with myself. I guess it’s a good thing the day is packed with “activity” for me.
I hope you don’t mind, I’ve been writing to you a little less frequently. It’s not that I don’t think about you all the time, or that I’m forgetting about you and Miranda. As time moves on, I find there’s less and less to say. My heart feels your absence, just as keenly as it did 3 months ago, and no words can change that. I know that that empty spot will just always be there, regardless of what happens over the course of the rest of my life.
I guess I don’t have a lot to say today, either. My tears are just going to have to do my talking for me. I mostly just wanted to wish you a Happy Mother’s Day, mommy. If God is gracious, He’s giving you an extra special day in Heaven, at least I hope He is.
I love you. I miss you. Give Miranda a kiss from daddy.
Love,
Chad
praying you will be blessed in some special way today.
ReplyDeleteYa know Chad, you will always be a Dad, a Husband and Sara and Miranda will always be part of you. Time heals our sorrows, life goes on, the pain isnt as raw with time, but we never forget those we love that have gone on ahead of us.You have shown such courage in this blog, shown some of us the working threw all this, and what faith you have shown, I have no idea what heaven is like, but you have shown it to be very peaceful, Sara was as lucky to have had you as you are to have had her. Find hope and joy in all this that they know even on a day like today, you love them.
ReplyDeleteTake some time for you to find yourself again. My respect to Saras' parents and yours. They too lost someone very special to them.
Be safe, be well.
I have thought about you all day long today. I am amazed at your poise and grace. I know those are not the typically manly man compliments, but you inspire me. You make me want to be a better Christian and you make Heaven sound even better than I could imagine. I am sure Sara enjoyed her day (as much as it hurts her to see you in such pain) with Miranda. They will be with you everyday on this Earth and one day you will hold them both again.
ReplyDeleteChad - You came to mind often today - thinking of you and how difficult this day would be. Praying God is extra gentle with your heart tonight...
ReplyDeleteI have been thinking about you all day today, thinking about how this would have been Sara's first Mother's Day, thinking about Sara as I arranged the flowers my hubby gave me to commemorate the day, thinking about all of the things that had to be running through your head. Thoughts and prayers definitely headed your way today, as they are every day. Thank you for bringing us along on your journey. Know that you are loved by so many people who have never met you...
ReplyDeleteOh Chad I so wish your wife and Miranda could be here with you. I think about you all often and wish things could be different for both of us. I was actually just thinking the same thing the other day about Hallmark not making a card for this. Thinking of you always
ReplyDeleteThinking of you. Sara was blessed to be a mother in her life. It is a wonderful gift.
ReplyDelete...Mother's Day was yesterday in my country... and a couple of students mentioned loss and friends they knew who had experienced loss in that very day and how they kept thinking about them... I remembered you too... Miranda and Sara... and my mom was really sad too because of my brother's passing... and missing him...
ReplyDeleteTime heals if you allow yourself to hear...
Sending you peace...
Wow. I'm absolutely speechless, but trying to find some words to type to you, a stranger. I just found your blog while checking out the blog of a mom who has lost her baby. I'm a stranger from Canada and have not the slightest clue of how I would deal with the tragic hand you've been dealt. I've been following some other people who have lost children and every post makes me feel even more appreciative of everything I have. And I always think "it couldn't get any worse than losing a child." But when I found your blog, I realize that it CAN get worse. Your story is honestly the worst. Not gonna sugar coat it, because you KNOW it's the worst. I'm so so sorry for your losses. I know those words really don't mean much, All I can tell you is I've only read a handful of your posts and I can't see through the tears right now. I'm a mother of a beautiful baby boy, and so the only thing we have in common is the fact that we both know the feeling of a parent-baby bond. My heart hurts SO much for you. I am SO SO sorry - I truly wish there were something I could do.
ReplyDeleteDear Chad,
ReplyDeleteStill praying for you every time you come to mind.
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Chad, My name is Shelly and I have been following your blog from the beginning and have cried for you many times. No one should ever have to endure what your have. I am very inspired by your faith and have read your words many times when holding on to my own rock. I believe we know some of the same people. We said good bye to a dear friend Wednesday. I just couldn't shake the feeling that you where somewhere in the church so when Brent came to a friends that night for a get together in honor of Brad I asked him if he knew you and if you where there. I had looked for you and wish I could have met you. I would loved to have been able to give you the hug in person that I have wanted to give so many times in the past few months while reading your post. Brad had a kind spirit much like I see your sweet wife did and I know that they where both watching over the ones they love that day and every day to follow until you meet again. Thank you so much for your words, I have learned a lot from them. Maybe some day we will meet and I can give you that hug in person. Shelly
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