Sunday, February 5, 2012

Happy Birthday...

Dear Miranda,

Today we celebrated your birth. A time of sadness. A time of joy.

Today, at the same time that you were delivered last year, a single pink balloon floated into the clear blue sky and we sang Jesus Loves The Little Chidren and Happy Birthday to you. What a contrast to the day you were, the the sun was shining. The wind was calm. There is no snow...not a flake to be seen.

My dear sweet little girl, my angel. It's hard to express what not having you here feels like. There's a hole. A gaping hole that is supposed to filled with giggles, kisses, and birthday cake. Instead it's filled with tears.

Daddy is surrounded by love today. And prayers. Family. Friends. It's hard to feel so loved...and yet still feel so alone. There's only one thing I want in my arms.

I love you. I miss you. I always will. Give mommy a hug from me.



  1. If only last winter had been this mild, without a flake on the ground...things would be much different indeed. :(

  2. Happy Birthday to your sweet daughter! Chad, I'm overwhelmed by so many emotions for you at the moment, but mostly sadness. I will pause and pray. I'm thankful you are surrounded by love given by friends and family. I pray that you won't feel so alone. God bless.

  3. Chad,

    I have been thinking about you all day. This morning at church, this afternoon as my middle girl was decorating her birthday cake, today when the dog ate the cake. I was so upset at the dog, for him ruining her birthday.
    As I sit here tonight, I think how happy you would be to have a funny story to tell Miranda about her birthday as she gets older. That you would be more than happy to rush to Meijers to get her a new cake. There are so many things and interactions I take for granted. I try not to, but I do...
    Then, you pop into my mind and I realize how blessed I am. All the stupid stuff melts away, I stop what I am doing and I give my girls a hug, I give my husband a kiss. I don't tell you these things to upset you, but to thank you.
    Thank you for allowing me access to your life and because of that making me realize how quickly it can change. How to not take a single thing for granted.
    I think the most important lesson I have learned from you and your writing (and Sarah) is to be kind.Be kind in my words, be kind in my actions, and be kind in my thoughts. As long as I can remember to be kind; even in the moments that I am having a "poor me" party, is my legacy will be a postive one.
    I wish you were not a great and shinning example, I wish you were someone I had never heard of, someone who was sitting home with your beautiful wife and very active baby. I am so sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine being as strong as you in the situation you have been forced into. I pray for you, and I think of you several times a day.

  4. Miranda~ {Happy Birthday, Sweet Angel!}...Lighting a candle today...saying a prayer...♥ God's {Peace, Love & Light} to you Chad.

  5. Happy Birthday Miranda. It is obvious you are still very much loved. You were not here long, but have touched the hearts of thousands. Praying for strength for your daddy.

  6. Happy Birthday precious Miranda! So many people have been touched by your life.

  7. Thinking of you tonight. May your angels in heaven make the stars extra brilliant tonight to let you know they are looking out for you.

  8. I don't know you, but I came across your blog through a friend of a friend of a friend or something like that, a few weeks ago. I wanted to come back and say happy birthday to your little girl. I am so grieved for your hurt.

  9. Happy Belated Birthday precious Miranda! There are many here, who don't know you, your mommy or your daddy personally but still love you! Your short life has impacted the lives of many. Don't worry, these same people are praying for your daddy!


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