I watched a video clip today that grandma filmed, on Sunday, at the memorial service for children who have passed away at CS Mott Children's Hospital.
I want to hold you again. I want to feel your little heart beat against my fingertips. I want to touch your soft skin, and kiss your beautiful little feet, hands, and face.
There's a hole in daddy's heart that will never be filled. It may become surrounded, encased by a cocoon of love, but it will never be filled.
I miss you and mommy a lot today. I know you're having fun in Heaven, but I still wish you were here.
I love you. I miss you. Give mommy a kiss from daddy.
Love,
Daddy
Chad~ Thank you for sharing your deepest thoughts with all of us! Miranda is one beautiful little one, and what a beautiful angel to watch over you! I know that there will always be a place in your heart that belongs to both your Beautiful Sara and Miranda, and I love how you express that it may be surrounded by a cocoon of love, but never filled. I continue to pray for you and your families as you continue on this journey.
ReplyDeleteWith Love in Christ,
Missie
Chad,
ReplyDeleteVery powerful letter. Your pain is very evident in your words. To loose a child like you have is terrible, and words cant discribe the pain. She will be your " WEE" one forever and no future children will ever come close to the feelings you have of Miranda. How lucky she is to have you as her " Daddy" and how lucky you are for having her.
Again, as others have said, thank you for sharing your own pain with us.
Many years ago we lost our first child at 23 months. and we still grieve for her.We have been blessed with 2 more daughters now and 5 wonderful Grands, but we remember like yesterday our Amy with her red hair and fair skin.
Chad~
ReplyDeleteThere are no words...I wish there was something I could do or say...and yet, I know NOTHING can take away the pain you are feeling right now.
Please continue to grieve and feel and share and love and cry...I'm terribly sad you have to - but what a powerful tribute to Sara and Miranda.
Prayers...for that's all I can do...
d~
What a beautiful post Chad... and an awesome picture too...
ReplyDeleteNothing can repair the damage, time will help in the healing process and remembering to remember... all the wonderful times you lived while she was still in Sara's belly and all the love you shared.
She is so beautiful! I have no idea how you come back from something like this - but you are. You have created a powerful, heartbreaking, intimate tribute to your wife and daughter in this blog. Actually, you are honoring them each and every day simply by putting one foot in front of the other - wiping each tear away (or letting it fall)and keeping your eyes on Christ.
ReplyDeleteMy heart breaks for you often and I pray for your often.
Peace be with you, Chad.
She is so beautiful! Sending love & peace your way.
ReplyDeletePraying for you to have comfort and peace - xoxo from FL
ReplyDeleteSo tiny, sweet, and innocent. Thanks for sharing Chad, she is such a beautiful angel.
ReplyDeleteDear Chad: I love your beautiful posts, they are a tribute to your love for Sara and Miranda. Your our in my thoughts and prayers. Nina
ReplyDeleteChad,
ReplyDeleteYour wife and daughter are both beautiful. Sending you continued thoughts and prayers.
Reading your blog has been amazing. It is as heartbreaking as it is inspirational. I'm in awe of your strength and wisdom. My heart and prayers go out to you and your two angels.
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You know Chad every time I see a picture of your beautiful baby i can't help but marvel at how perfect and how much like her beautiful mommy she looks. What a gift! One of my dear friends is celebrating or reflecting on her angel baby's first birthday today. Her little girl passed away at 5months old from meningitis. It's been a hard 7 months for all of us. Life is so precious, and it slips away so quickly. Please pray for my friend Miranda today as she struggles with her loss.
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